I wonder how long it will take me to make changes – or start things – without major crises in my life.
Recently, I started thinking that it’s not the crisis that sparks the new commitment.
It’s the calming down after.
It creates a space. Well, not the calming down. But the allowing, letting things be just be as they are. Even opening myself to the feelings that arise.
And playing guitar.
I don’t know how it works. But that always opens up … something.
In a way, I’ve never stopped committing to building something meaningful here. I’ve constantly thought about it.
And this is me saying:
I’m sticking with this site.
I’m sticking with the vision I have for it.
And I’m sticking to letting the calmness unfold.
The openness and that light, openhearted, playful feeling.
Because, when I think about it. –
That’s what MonkySpirit is about:
The calm and the playfulness.
And coming back to crisis:
Realizing that the calm after creates most of the change: Isn’t that freeing?
Realizing that you don’t even need to experience the disaster to embrace change and reorient yourself?
You need the calm.
You need to learn how to achieve it.
You need to create experiences that help you prove it.
And I guess that’s part of what I like writing about: creating change for yourself in a healthy way.
Well, actually more than that. –
Changing and having fun doing it.
Not beating myself up about habits that won’t stick.
Rather, I’d like to find all the things that I can get excited about—or that come to me with grace, with ease, in a natural, truly organic way.
Well, there’s more of that to come.
I’m committed.